Dream

I lay upon my bed in tears, feeling sorry for myself and my condition. I felt the bed move slightly. I opened my swollen eyes and perceived a woman sitting at the foot. I did not trust my own vision and did not speak. “Is your sadness so profound that you cannot speak?” “No,” I said, “I did not know you were real and so did not address you.”

“You wonder who I am. I go by many names. Some call me Grandmother. Others call me Conscience. It is true I am old, even older than conscience or even consciousness.”

“Why have you honored me with your presence?”

“I was sent to help you. Your thinking is not right. You go against your own beliefs.”

“In what way?”

“You feel Fate has dealt you a great blow. Yet, you did not credit her for your success in the past.”

“I thought my cleverness had brought me happiness. Was this wrong?”

“You are clever but Fate is fickle, she is not like me. I always give my best to humankind. She is capricious. She raises one up while letting another fall. She knows nothing of Justice.”

“What can I do?”

“You can do much. Have you failed?”

“I think not. Jealous men have opposed me.”

“They brought your downfall?”

“This is what I have seen.”

“There is more to see. What inspires jealousy? Men see one who excels. They see them above and shoot arrows to bring them down. They find nothing in themselves to soar higher.”

“But why do those who have done no wrong have to suffer?”

“You have the answer within your grasp.”

I thought for a bit on her words. “Is it because they have not talent? They have risen by another means.”

“By what means?”

“By association with those who have risen. They encourage them with flattering words. The one flattered knows he is more lucky than skilled. He shows the flatterer the way to succeed. It involves a compromise with morality.”

“Is there more?”

“Yes,” I said, “He resents the man who applies skill and succeeds. It exposes the method that is devious and cannot hold up to bright daylight.”

“That may well be but now we come to your reaction to all of this. Are you sorry that you can’t compete against evil methods? Or are you sorry that goodness in not rewarded in this world?”🌎

“Your question confuses me. I do not know the answer.”

“Let us start in a different place. What is the most important thing in life?”

“Your questions are not easy. I think to have a clear conscience is the way to live in peace.”

“A fine answer. Now, why are you sad?”

“Because my good actions have had bad results.”

“You may be in a bad situation but is it a result of your good actions?”

“No. Should I blame Fate?”

“For what?”

“For my circumstances.”

“Have you seen others have bad results when doing good?”

“I have not looked for this.”

“There are many who suffer. Some from the their own actions, yes. But not all. Many have been tripped up while running. What was your goal?”

“Happiness, I suppose.”

“And what adds up to happiness?”

“Enjoying what you do. Gaining a benefit from your work. Having security.”

“Ah, I see the problem. You anticipared a secure foundation that would support your good efforts.”

“Yes, I suppose so.”

“And what is the secure foundation?”

“It can’t just be good luck.”

“No, Luck is no foundation.”

“I don’t know.”

“Let’s try and find one. Answer these three questions: where did your skill and ability come from? Why did you excel at what you do? What do you have that others do not?”

“The first is the hardest. I had an ability within me. I learned from others how to apply my natural ability. The others had experience. Others recognized my potential and gave me opportunity.”

“All you said is true, yet my question is not answered. Where did it come from? What is the source? Where do abilities come from to people?”

“Is the answer: God?”

“Well, can you say more?”

“If it doesn’t come from me, then it must come from another source. That source would be able to equip people to do something in their life. ”

“Yes, a benevolent Source. And this Source, is it intelligent?”

“It must be, because we are intelligent. It must also be good and wise and powerful.”

“Now, if this is your foundation, why do you think you have failed?”

“Because I am not happy.”

“So, happiness is the measure of a good life? Have you had no challenges in your life?”

“Yes, I have overcome a few setbacks.”

“What if this very moment was a gift to allow you to think about what is most important? And to evaluate whether you are going towards the best goal?”

“You are making me think harder than I ever have before.”

“That is my intention. You must have a goal that is worthwhile and attainable. Happiness is not a very good goal. Life is capricious, we have agreed. Your foundation and your goal must be of the same kind. Can you gain help from this God you have mentioned?”

“Wait, who sent you?”

“I must go now. You have enough to think on. Self pity will not help you. Gaining wisdom will.”

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Oneness

Have you received the Holy Spirit? What is your evidence? Some say speaking in tongues. This is one manifestation of the Spirit but there are others. We focus on this because of the mystery and drama of it.

Paul says love is above the gifts or manifestations of the Spirit. It is greater than faith and hope. Faith and hope are pretty big. Love is greater. Why?

Faith will be replaced by sight. We will see that which we now believe by faith. Hope will be realized in a new reality in the future. But, Love. Love is eternal. It is more than eternal. It is timeless. Love was before time. Love exists now beyond the reach of time.

So Love is beyond time. Do you exhibit divine love? Timeless love inside of time on earth. Now this is evidence of what is beyond time itself. This is the evidence of the Spirit of God.

You know, it’s rather easy to speak in tongues. To speak in a language you never learned. You can do it in your car. You can do it walking down the street. But loving another person with divine love is quite a different thing. It involves action. It involves your body and soul, all of you. Even if it is a prayer for another offered to God on their behalf.

It may involve a conflict. It may involve a hard choice. It may be the rejection of a selfish act for a kind one. It may be to deny yourself and give to another. It may involve doing something for another that they don’t even know about. Or it maybe they do and are not grateful for it. What about that?

That is divine love. Kindness to the ungrateful. Jesus said God gives rain on the crops of people who don’t regard him at all. God is kind to the ungrateful no matter what you have heard. Like he wants to punish sinners. He does not. He wants to forgive his enemies. He wants to reconcile them to himself. He does not want even one to perish.?

Jesus quoted a common saying, love your friends, hate your enemies. That makes sense. But I say, love your enemies. How can that be? Really? Love your enemies? Like how? Pray for them. Hmm. Do not resist them. If they demand your coat, give them your hat.

Now this is the amazing advice of Jesus who gave his time and energy to people who went away and never thanked him. Cured of leprosy? On their way to a good life. No goodbye.

He did what he said. I didn’t come to condemn anyone. Neither do I condemn you. Go and sin no more. Father, forgive them…

This is the evidence of receiving the Spirit of God: you act like him. Impossible? No, expected by Jesus. This receiving the Holy Spirit must be really big. A change within. Your hard hearts become real human hearts the prophet said. The human heart that loves God and does his will is what God intended when he made us in his image. The heart that is one with others in Christ is the intent of God from the beginning.

Let Us make man in Our image, in Our likeness. I and the Father are One. Yes. like that.

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Pure in Heart?

Our heart may have many desires. We can work on getting them. But inside the desire is the belief that when we get what we desire, we would experience satisfaction. 

What if you get what you want and it doesn’t satisfy? Then what? You are surprised. You say, “Hey, this is exactly what I wanted. But the satisfaction I expected has come and gone.”

We pursue another desire. And we may have the same experience. It does not satisfy us as we thought it would.

Here’s the problem: Our desires are faulty. What we desire is not what will satisfy us. It seems like they should but they don’t. They can’t. Because the desire is not related to that deep part of us that wants to be satisfied. We do not know enough about the deep desire of our soul. That’s why we think this or that should satisfy us.

Our culture tells us that happiness lies in this or that. They are attainable in life. Money, adventure, becoming an expert at something, facing danger or becoming wise are all good things

But the deep desire of your heart can’t be met under normal life circumstances. Can it be that the very part that measures satisfaction is broken?

We have to get rid of our very unit of measure. To fulfill this desire involves a dramatic change. Only your soul knows what it needs.

Let’s take a example. You feel love would fulfill your deep desire. You pursue love. And you find that one person. This is it. This is real love. You love them. They love you.

Everything is right. They want to give you all their love. And they do. You love them with all you have. But somehow as life gives you trouble, well, it’s just no fun anymore. And as good as love is, you need better love. 

Where do we get this love?

You are a creature created for something. You must have this better love. You need to get rid of all other desires until you only have one desire. Pursue this desire and you will find that which satisfies.

This is what it means to be pure in heart. You only want one thing. And that is what will satisfy you. In the process, you are changed. All those other desires become useless because they always were useless. They only covered up the true desire of your heart.

And the purity of your heart guarantees it will be satisfied. Blessed are the pure in heart…

The one responsible for our greatest need must answer. He will answer because he must. If he made us to need him, how can he ignore us who have nowhere else to go?

We were wrong. We had things wrong within us. No wonder we did wrong. A big important part of us was not functioning. Now we are alive. We can become that which we were meant to be.

The part of us, the selfish part, was doing us no favors. Worst yet, we thought that was the real us. We need to be totally reorientated. You and I have great potential. Really!

Now, you may think, like I did, that Christianity was believing certain things. They give you a list. But Jesus said two things: believe God sent me and follow me.

Is this a list of beliefs? No. But there is an old list. It starts with this: Love God. Why does God say this? Because he knows no other relationship. He loves you wholeheartedly. He knows no other way to love. And he knows that you loving him will give the best results for your life.

This is the ultimate gift: the ability to love unselfishly. God has this ability. In fact, it is the only way he can love. He has no need. But no one has this naturally. We are born in need.

Do you think God made people because he needed people to love him? Being three beings in one, there was no shortage of love. But they decided they had enough to share. We were made to be included in this love.

But the inclusion is voluntary. There is no forcing people to love with God. Remember only God is good. Only God has the love we need.

Yet, the world had to wait for Jesus to demonstrate what love was all about.

Meek Will Get Stuff

Blessed are the meek,

for they shall inherit the earth.

Are you meek?

These meek, what do they do?

They endure.

Endure what?

Trouble.

Without complaint. With patience.

What if we believe this?

What if we believe we will inherit?

Inherit what?

Everything.

If we know that we will among those who inherit all things, then what?

We worry that we will run out of things.

I think he is talking about the new earth.

It will not have vast oceans.

There may be new kinds of animals.

Put this kind of thinking in your mind.

You will be among those who inherit everything.

In a sense, all is yours now. You are an heir.

Jesus Christ himself has not received all of his inheritance, yet.

Seek ye the Lord, all ye meek of the earth, which have wrought his judgment; seek righteousness, seek meekness: it may be ye shall be hid in the day of the Lord’s anger. Zephaniah 2:3

Now this is Old Testament stuff.

But remember, that statement is from God, too.

But Jesus gave a promise.

He said the meek will inherit the earth.

Meekness means strength under control. Imagine a soldier. He has weapons. He is well-trained to fight. Yet, he waits for orders. This is a definition of meekness.

The meek shall inherit the earth.

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Blessed are Mourners

Blessed are those who mourn,

for they shall be comforted.

Do you mourn?

You are sad because you have lost something or someone.

Someone died. You can’t get them back.

The door of death is a closed door.

And so we mourn.

We know one thing: they are not here.

We can’t talk to them.

We can’t go see them.

We can’t discuss our thoughts with them.

But Jesus says, “they shall be comforted.”

But how? When?

Let’s look in the bible.

It was said to Adam by God that if he did this thing, there would be death.

He did exactly that thing, and he eventually died.

And all since him either die of old age, or disease, or are killed somehow.

But Jesus says, “they shall be comforted.”

By who? It must be God or Jesus could not be so sure about this.

So how are we mourners comforted?

If your relative or friend loved Jesus, they are somewhere good.

Why? Because God is good and he sends angels to take them into the next life.

But what if they did not follow Jesus?

We know this: God is fair. That is some comfort.

That person had some opportunity to call on God in their life.

We can leave them to God for fair treatment.

He knows all things.

The story of Lazarus who was raised from the dead is interesting.

Did anyone ask him where he was for four days?

I would have.

I can tell you what he might have said.

Things were so different. I don’t have words to relate to you sitting here at this table what it was like. I can tell you this. I heard a voice calling me. It turned out to be Jesus, outside my grave. They came and got me out of the wrappings. And I was healthy and whole. Here I am talking to you. All I can tell you is this: I was somewhere very different from here. Four days, you say, they don’t have days there.

Am I guessing? Not really. I have read several accounts of people who seemed dead for days who returned to life.

They are unable to relate their experiences in any way we can appreciate.

So we are comforted now by trusting our good God.

What about the future?

Lazarus had a sister named Martha.

She said she knew her brother would come alive in “the resurrection”.

Let’s go to the back of the book.

And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

  And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.

God never wanted people to have sorrow.

Tears were not made for sadness.

This will happen because God said it would to a trustworthy man who wrote it down because the Lord said to write it.

Will your tears be wiped away? Will mine?

We can be sure of this if we trust God and his son, Jesus with our lives.

 

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BLESSED: Poor

Blessed are the poor in spirit

for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

 

Poor in spirit. It sounds bad. Hopeless? Crushed by life?

Or just plain poor. No money. You can’t buy stuff you want or need.

When do they get it? Those poor. That kingdom of heaven. In the future?

The kingdom of heaven is at hand, he said.

It’s close by in time. It’s now.

My kingdom is not of this world, he said.

How so?  He did not say: it’s not for now. He did not say: It’s for later.

It’s just different. No physical revolution to get it going. No war to keep it.

No land to defend.

No uniforms. No special hats.

You can get in now.

But it’s different.

The hopelessness goes away. The crushed spirit is lifted up. The poverty is addressed.

The poor are hearing the gospel, he said.

How does that help?

Well, let’s say you gave them, you know, money, a lot of money.

These kingdom people have a lot of money now!

They would have to keep it safe.

They might bury it.

And make a map to it.

Someone gets the map.

They go to take out more of their money. It’s gone!

Hey, Jesus, the money you gave me. Someone stole it.

How about if I just keep it for you. We’ll have fun with it.

Maybe I’ll hide some in a fish. Trust me.

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Open Eyes

In Genesis, it says this:

And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together and made themselves aprons.

To what were their eyes opened? To themselves. To their weakness. It was a very uncomfortable awakening. They had to take action. They made clothing out of leaves.


But this covering was not enough. When they heard the Lord, they ran and hid. Some say they were motivated by guilt. I don’t think so. Listen to Adam: “I heard your voice in the garden, and I was afraid, because I was naked; and I hid myself.” He says nothing about feeling guilty. He says he was afraid because he was naked.

Why do they feel so vulnerable? Their new separation from God made their self-awareness nearly unbearable.


Contrast this to the revelation of Jesus to the open eye of faith. This is a view that looks outward. We see the same Lord as Adam having come to rescue us with more than a covering of animal skin.

We respond in faith not in fear. We run towards him not away from him. He offers us a robe of righteousness. He has purchased this robe with his own blood, not the blood of animals.

The result is an awareness of God not ourselves. We already know we are weak and alone. That is why the rescue of God is so wonderful. We see his strength. We see the man who did not fall to temptation. We see our true hero, our Saviour.


This is a much better eye-opening experience that Adam. And make no mistake. If you see Jesus as the Son of God, it has been revealed to you by his Father. Your faith in response connects you to God.

We have received the grace of God. We know God as Our Father. Adam walked the earth as disconnected from God. Yes, he walked in clothing given to him by the Lord but he did not experience the closeness he had before.

Why not? He gave the wrong answers to the questions of the Lord. He blamed another not himself. He might have received immediate forgiveness. We can’t know because he refused to accept blame.


We never hear from Adam again. We don’t know his reaction to the curse on the earth. We know he raised a family and found that the curse on the earth did not prevent him from farming but only made it difficult.

But we find the Lord offering us living water. He says, “Whoever drinks the water I give will never thirst again.” He offers himself as the Bread of Life. And Jesus said unto them, “I am the bread of life: he that comes to me shall never hunger.”

Jesus speaks in simple words that we can understand. But they are spiritually understood. This bread is not gained by the sweat of the brow, but received as the gift of God to needy yet undeserving people like us.


He knows our needs more than we do and has come to satisfy our greatest need. He is the Tree of Life, the Water that destroys thirst, the Bread from heaven, the True Manna and more.

He says, Come and buy, without money and without price. He knows we could never afford the price and so gives it to us free instead, having paid the price himself.

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The Dwelling of God

Although God has a dwelling place on earth, it is not a temple with great adornments. It is not a cathedral with an awe-inspiring ceiling. It is not even a standard Protestant church with a discreet steeple. And it’s not a plain building with a fancy name.


No, it is none other than the human heart. Are you surprised? You think God stays at the church when you go home? When the Lord says:


we do not think it’s a literal door made of wood. We say, it’s the ‘door of our heart’.


Jesus is not a home invader. He can only be invited in. But maybe we are not ready for him. It’s a mess in here, come back later, Lord. But he does not care. He wants to be with you. He doesn’t evaluate your dwelling beforehand.

He knows your place is a fixer-upper. He has seen worse. He doesn’t care. He is there to improvement your life. But he doesn’t start with that. No, he wants to sit down and have dinner with you. Even if it’s Chinese take-out. He is there for the company, your company.

But I am not worthy for you to stay with me, Lord. I need to fix things up. Go ahead, he says, I will help. Do you want suggestions? That stack of magazines can go. I was just thinking of taking them out to the trash, you say. When you return, there is a new rocking chair in that place.

He is not there to make you feel guilty. He is there to help you feel clean. He wants you to have a clear conscience. Look, I am going up to clear out the attic, he says. You do what you think best down here.

But that attic is full of a lot of old worthless junk! I know, he says, we are not going to let the past hold you back.


Later, he says, I’ve been looking at your record collection. Do you think something more hope-filled could be better? It’s a rather depressing catalog. It is, you say, I used to be depressed a lot. I don’t feel that way, so much, now that you’re here.

What do you say to better food in your refrigerator? We can have a diet of better things. Yes, you say, I’ve been chewing on guilt and envy too long. What about mercy and pure love? he asks. That does sound better, you say.


Lord, when I would lay down, my mind was full of worry and frustration. Now, that you are here, my sleep is peaceful.

Lord, I had my doubts when you knocked on my door. Now, I have no doubts. In fact, faith has replaced doubt. The order you have brought allows me to have a clear conscience. Light fills my rooms now that we have brushed away cobwebs and cleaned the dirty windows.

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Finding God

How do we approach God? There have been many books written about this. But it comes down to this: Each of us must find God in their personal relationship with him. Enoch walked with God. We have no more details. He walked with God for 300 years. He “walked” with God. He did not run. He moved through life at an unhurried pace.

First, we must be patient. God is not in a hurry. We must slow down to meet him.

Be still and know that I am God.

We are encouraged to slow down. To be still. Even to stop.

And Enoch was constant. He continuously walked with God for many years. Do we think we can “know” God in one encounter? We can “meet” God in one encounter. Enoch kept walking with God, year after year.

Do you want to sense the presence of God? Do the will of God. Part of the will of God is to “Be still and know that I am God.” We can’t be in tune with God unless we know his nature. We must begin with God to know his will.

God is the most attractive Being. But, like the sun, he is dangerous. His holiness, goodness and purity are beyond our comprehension. But he has the ability to make us his friends who were once alienated from him. He can actually make us holy. His forgiveness is so thorough that we can draw close to him.

Maybe as we are being still, we can realize we are seated in the heavenlies. This means we are secure in our relationship with God. Now, we begin to “do the will of God” by taking a clear statement of Jesus and putting it into practice. “And this is the will of God, to believe on the One whom he has sent.” Or, “You believe in God, believe also in me.” We learn the will of God by doing the will of God. If you want to “know” the will of God, begin by doing the will of God you already know.

Why would God give us more specifics of his will if we are not doing what he has revealed already? We can listen to the experience of Abraham’s servant. “And I bowed down my head, and worshipped the Lord…who had led me in the right way…” He had followed Abraham’s instructions, but he needed more direction. He found it in doing what he already knew. It will be the same with us.

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Knowing God

How can we know God? We may believe that if we do, we will have peace and joy in our lives. So, we want to pursue him. We can learn about God, about his nature from his Son, Jesus. But we are in a quandary. God dwells in the human heart after two modes namely, by knowledge and by love. Everyone who knows Him loves Him, but nobody can love Him without knowing Him.

Someone who wants to find out about another person’s character and inner thoughts gets on friendly terms with them and is often in their company. They find out who are their friends. And if they see this person as worthy of their love, they can open their heart to love them.

Let us find out where God is and question his friends concerning him. He is faithful, if it is not in him to deceive people. If he freely pardons those who sin, then he is kind. If he shows pity to persons in trouble, then he is merciful. And he is lowly, if he rules his people not by oppressing but by helping them. If he is faithful, then he merits praise. If he is kind, if he is merciful, if he is humble, then he deserves our love.

It is difficult to have faith in God because do not see this kind of love in our daily lives. We see love that trades this for that to get something. We see love for family, but we are not in that family. We see love for others, but it is limited to those like-minded. We see love that has its limits. We do not see love that is unlimited. And God is invisible. We can’t see him.

Our method is faith. Do you say that you have no faith? Of course, you do. If you sit on a chair, you have faith. If you get into a elevator, you have faith. You and I have faith about many things, every day. You say, I have faith in the chair because I saw someone sit on it. I have faith in the elevator because I saw someone get out of it.

Okay, find someone that has faith in God. Ask them why they do. They should have an answer. If they don’t, find someone else. Ask them how God treats them. We can even learn from those who have a grudge against God. Does God deserve their hate? See if you agree that their hate for God is deserved. Some are mad at God. They say he doesn’t care because he won’t fix the world. Have we thought what that would mean: the end of free will.

There is a reason to forget God. If you want to exercise that free will and do what you want. And God will let you. You always get a choice. You don’t get God if you don’t choose him. But remember this: he is all good and wants to bless you. And he always has.

Draw close to God and he will draw close to you. He will not impose. It says, he stands at your door and knocks. Do you hear that knocking? If you answer the door, he will come in. And if you ask him to stay, he will do that, as well.

Now, therefore, enter your own inmost heart, and make a dwelling-place for God. Make Him a temple, make Him a house, make Him a pavilion. Make Him an ark of the covenant, make Him an ark of the flood; no matter what you call it, it is all one house of God. In the temple let the creature adore the Creator, in the house let the son revere the Father, in the pavilion let the knight adore the King. Under the covenant, let the disciple listen to the Teacher. In the flood, let him that is shipwrecked beseech Him who guides the helm.

Hugh of St Victor

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