What is the indescribable longing for something, you don’t know what, which makes you wonder if life has purpose. It lives in the back of your mind or really in your heart.
It is like when you are young and gaze too deeply into the eyes of another. You see something that is beyond words that two in love may share. But the desire is more than that and can lead to hope or despair.
But I can’t leave you between hope and despair. First, why despair? If you are sure you can never find this desire, there is nothing but despair in this world.
But the fact that you have this desire contains hope. How can you desire something that does not exist? This would be most cruel. Worse than the one who desires a mate but can’t seem to find the one they seek.
But what if the love, and it is love, is beyond you? That is not a problem to The Lover. He must understand love to create us able to love at all.
So we must become lovers not just beloved. What was the first command? Love God. Why? It is the only way to begin. To love the most lovable one is the easiest love. Then loving people can begin.
Our self-love is misinformed. Can we please our conscience? It wants perfection. When does it ever say you are good enough? The one who says they are a good person seems to be waiting for their conscience to say, “No they’re not!”
Now we can turn outward and begin to love. Love God. This is the first outward turn. The second is to love other people. God supplies this love. But we have to activate this gift. We love unselfishly.
Impossible? In our own strength, yes. But we have met the Inventor of Love. Someone went this far: saying God is Love.
So your desire is not wrong. You want love that heals you. This is the love of God that changes the receiver into a lover. What is this pure love? What is the love that gives without thought of receiving back. Divine love from the Divine Lover.